Futility- a personal note

 I always attaches some divinity to education and for me my education and my faith in God go hand in hand. As we are in the midst of the pandemic we could separate the time like BC (before Corona) and AC (after Corona, still to come) I am really a sleepaholic person. Earlier I wakes up at 7 and somehow I managed to make my way to the college on time. But now I open my eyes at 8 30 and directly I enter into the online class...for me this is a very creepy kind of thing to do.Sometimes I enter the meet and sleep or I may busy in the kitchen helping Amma. I swear I don't do it intentionally but I am tired of pushing myself up. I lost all my divinity that I had been attached to learning. The main problem is that I don't feel these online classes that worthy... seeing the electronic face and voice are not at all a fascinating thing. NOW it's been about 4 months since the online classes has started. But my store is empty I don't know what I have learnt in the past few months. Personally I am not that into socializing I always keep my circle small. I had no problem going somewhere alone. I was happy being alone but now, NOT. I have intense desire to go out and to see some faces. I have to spend time with my friends. Even sometimes I feel like I couldn't make it. Hoping against the hope! Anyway now have only one wish...to survive this period of disillusionment and to regain my spirit,my values, my ethics, my powers and myself. Okay bye